LYRICS
HOW TO BREAK IT
(all lyrics by Graham Ferguson)

1. THE BULGING GATES OF MADNESS

Behold the bulging gates of madness
Forged in the acrid fires of faith
Encage deranged and wild eyed masses
Forever crying out in shame

Born into the stain
Into the shame
Out of the darkness, into the faith
Turn into the pain
Turn on yourself
If you believe, you will pass the gates

Emaciated souls of madmen
Twisting and writhing in disgrace
Cast iron jaws of Armageddon
Forever calling home the strays


2. FLOATING

Floating
Soaking
Hoping

Waiting
Fading
Praying

Rising
Dying

I'll never understand
What kind of wretched man
Could have done this
I found them in the pond
Just floating on the top
In the morning mist

The lawyers and the press
Cashed in on the whole mess
Everyone but her
Poor Lucy and her friend
Strange markings on their heads
Sleep forever


3. IGNITION

Exceeding the limits of everything we lost control
A civilization of madmen will soon pay the toll
The shell of a planet we once called our home
Will soon be a ball of fire
Human race will expire

Awaiting the skies to unleash our black fate from above
To poison the air 'neath the sad wings of our mourning dove
The end of an arms race will flash in the sky
At least we'll be winning, yeah, when it's our turn to die

There's no time to alter our ways blown off track
Bracing ourselves for a higher impact
Countdown, ignition, there's no turning back
Not for any of us

A shower of missiles has stormed out our once mighty reign
Our riches in ruin, our centuries lost in a day
The last of us scatter and soon we will die
A nuclear winter, our legacy, falls from the sky


4. ABOMINATION

I always do what my TV tells me to
If you are wise you'll recognize the truth
God wants to save you, but you haven't paid yet
How much for your eternal rest?
Eternal rest

Put all your faith in one man's glowing visions
Visions of all those God will smite and burn
Caught him on camera making his donations
Last night on 53rd and 3rd

Stand up, face the jury
As you do others, you get done
Guilty as charged, guilty as charged
Abomination


5. LONG FOR NOTHING

It's all for nothing
It's all been done
I lost my yearning
It's long, long gone

So I've been tearing myself apart,
All for nothing?
And every word that I squeeze from my heart
Long for nothing?

It's all for nothing
It's all been changed
You quit one, quit another
But they're all, they're all the same

So I've been tearing myself apart
All for nothing?
And every word that I squeeze from my heart
Is long for nothing?
But I'll be sticking with all of my plans
Until it cuts like barbed wire through my hands well…

Believe me when I say to you
My time will not be served in vein
And I will fight you tooth and nail
Because I'm never going to change
And if it kills me I would rather die
Than let it all slip away
I will not give up on my life
I will not be too scared to try


6. WHILE OTHERS TALK TALL

A new day, a new pain, you don’t know why
No mercy, no way out, more every night
My meds and my head in a dog fight

When others talk tall, heed my call
When others know it all, know thyself
Persistence is the way to prove it in the end
When others stand down, stand your ground
When others catch a break, just you wait
All those who turn high tail will have no tails to tell

The pain of surviving is all that’s left
I can’t hide the writhing, I do my best
Won’t ever stop dying ‘til I’m dead

No way around the hurt
Don’t stop to make things worse
No sleep until I get what I deserve


7. LIKE A DOG

There’s a party on the edge of town
You’re invited if you want to come
All the kids are gonna fool around
Come on out and have some fun
This little town’s been on it’s knees
Since the factory went overseas
Gotta try and keep the spirits up

I seen a drifter on the edge of town
Camping under where the bridge is out
Had a crazy look in his eye
Won’t be partying tonight

Living like a dog, wondering where his life had gone

Used to dine with the president
Used to go where the money went
Cutting deals doing dirty deeds
Sending business overseas
Found a way to raise the bottom line
And get around it without doing time
Now the city has to pay the price
Payback wasn't far behind

Drank some poisoned wine
Celebrated all his crimes
When he came back he’d lost his mind

Used to be the man
‘til he turned his back
On the ones who made all he had
Living like a dog
Back where he belongs


8. FREE AT LAST

Done my time, I've paid for all my sins
Learned my lesson, won't get caught again

Free at last
I'm a changed man
Free at last
Want my life back

Free at last

I’ve been so lonely locked up and away
I wonder if my lady wants to play

Working out and reading all day long
No more fun, my woman's all I want


9. LITTLE KILLERS

Many secrets
Left alone to die inside
Morbid thoughts
Hide behind the innocence of pure eyes
Empty faces pass me by
With secrets I may never find
Balancing without within
We seem to let the wrong ones in

(Little killers)

Many lies
Left alone to die inside
Twisted minds
Distort reflected images they hide
Dying faces must confide
In those who weep and say goodbye
Lying dead for all to see
My real killers are set free

Trapped inside we taint your soul (little killers)
Set us free you lose control (little killers)
Changing all the things you see (little killers)
And once I'm dead then they'll change me (little killers)
They'll kill me

And all those things that you've done wrong
Will surely verse your final song
And all those times you tried and failed
Will be the times for which you're hailed
Kill him again, kill him again, kill him again
We'll see you at the end
Without hope, without love, without a friend


10. OUT OF YOUR MISERY

Talk, talk a lot, talk a whole lot
But you got nothing in your head
Talk, talk a lot, talk a whole lot
But you got nothing in your head, nothing in your head
Piece, say your piece, be here all week
Thinking it's never gonna end

Yeah yeah yeah yeah
It's never gonna end

We know everything that there is to know
We've been everywhere that there is to go
Don't wanna hear about, it we're in control
We know everything that you’re gonna say
All been done before, so throw it away
No new tale to tell it's just a cliche

Stop, beat the clock, make it all stop
Turn it off, make it go away,
Off, turn it off, turn the sound off
Gotta be making my escape, making my escape
'Nuff said, heard that, pipe down, get outta town

Yeah yeah yeah no
Rattling all day

Wait, wait it out, Mr. Bigmouth got a new
Sermon on the mount
Give me a break, give it up mate
Pack it in, calling it a day, calling it a day
Out of your misery out of my way

Get, get, get outta my way
Get out of my way


11. THE BIG QUESTION

Can you believe the way they talk about us?
A little strange how they round it all up
Another sermon, another survey
Another question no one asked me
Is it enough to be open minded?
Can there be faith if no one criticizes?
I can't believe that we stand here in silence while
While they're on the megaphone trying to answer...
(...trying to answer...)

The big question
The big question
Someone answer me

When I was young there was a code of ethics
Carved into stone by some ghostly magic
Another symbol, another story
Another prophet I don't believe
Is it enough to pretend that I do?
I can't believe just anything I choose to
I won't be silent, I look for the truth
While they stand at the podium trying to answer

The big question
The big question
Someone answer me


12. WICKED WOMAN

Tell me one more time how you’ll be there for me
And how you’ll always be the only friend I’ll ever need
Tell me how you’ll always love me true
Look me in the eyes, right here, these two

You wicked woman
You’re so pretty when you lie
Drawing all the rainbows in shades of black and white
You wicked woman
Don’t try to tell me that you care, yeah

Tell me one more time how much I mean to you
Another perfect lie for me to see you through
You never let me in on all your games
But I know the score, I know your ways

You wicked woman
You’re so pretty when you cry
Counting all the sorrows falling from your eyes
You wicked woman
All alone in your despair, yeah

It seemed for a time the sun would never set
The worlds revolved around your head
But those things kept a-rolling and around you went

You wicked woman
You’re so pretty when you die
In the end your so-called friends forget as time goes by
You wicked woman
I guess it really isn’t fair, yeah


13. YEAR OF THE DRAGON

Like a grain of fire growing in the sky
From the black and burning mountains where the heavens die
When the dragon came, darkness shook the land
The beginning of the end was finally realized

When the famine came, it took everything
From the harvest to the joyful songs we used to sing
For the ones who starved, graves of ash and sand
The despondent living just keep digging with brittle hands

What have we done to deserve this curse?
Which one of us spoke the fatal words
Punishing us forever

So we offer a sacrifice
At the alter of our redemption
May the death of a virgin satisfy
And restore our harvests of gold
So we offer a sacrifice
At the alter of our redemption
May the death of a virgin satisfy
And restore our sunrise of gold

What have we done to deserve this curse?
Which one of us spoke the fatal words
What have we done to deserve this curse? (What has she done to deserve to burn?)
Punishing us forever


14. BEFORE YOU DIE

Another day another dime
You’ve had all week to waste my time
And I’ve exceeded your demands
Don’t send me home with all your plans
Unless you plan to watch TV
If anybody needs me that’s where I’ll be
I got some things I need to fix
My attitude ain’t on the list
Be back on Monday if I feel like coming in

Before you die
You must decide
Just what you will do with your time
Before you die
I hope you learn
To make the most of your life

The time has come
The time goes fast

She wants to cry all weekend long
But she won’t even say what’s wrong
And that’s the only thing she won’t say
I had to chew off my right leg
I thought I’d never get away
Time marches on with one leg gone
With one leg
You’ve got to make time for yourself
Don’t leave it up to someone else
Cuz if you do no one will ever let you off

The time has come
The time won’t last

The time has come
The time has past


15. GUITARS

I'm never lonely
I just pretend
I don't like people
No matter where they've been
I hate your children
I hate your pets
Don't need a savior
Or any of the rest

Guitars

I never hurry
I own a car
I never drive it
I don't go far
Don’t need the money
Don’t need the sex
I don't like failure
I don't like success

Guitars (I just want)

I don't like singing
Na na na na

I'm not indifferent
I'm quite in-same
Know what I'm doing
I won't explain
I hate my culture
I hate myself
You'll never stop me
I'll never tell


16. EIGHT SILENT STEPS

Across a floor lit by the moon
A lonely shadow of death looms
Eight silent steps across your room

The eyes see all, don't move
The bite, the sting, your doom

Beneath the covers you’re the prey
You feel it crawling up your leg
You scream and kick but it's too late

The eyes see all, don't move
The bite, the sting, your doom
My black love throbs in your veins


17. EVEN IF WE FELL IN LOVE

Lead me not into temptation
These days I thrive on my own
Leave me alone with my questions

Even if we fell in love
I could never give enough
To be worthy
It's a lesson I forget
Every time she turns my head
Don't remind me

Trust me, I'll just try to fool you
Same thing they all seem to do
I hope you never forgive me

Try to find someone who
Loves you enough to tell the truth
When it hurts you
I would only make a mess
Out of everything again
And you know it

I'd try again if I thought you were different
Numb to the cold, I'd rather be alone


18. JOHNNY’S WHEELS

Johnny sped away from his mum
Live for speed, die for fun
Hell on three wheels growing up in the sun
Johnny had to stay number one
Line it up jump the gun
Anything it took he always won

Johnny always told me he’d learn to fly someday

Like a wheel
On a little red wagon spinning out on the corner
Johnny lived his life without no law and order
Like a wheel
Just a dirty little bastard going out for a ride
I guess Johnny lived for speed and then he…

Didn’t give a damn what people said
Never got through his head
Never thought the road to tell hell might end
Rocketing past you he would shed
The speeding tickets he would get
Marking off the miles that he sped

Johnny always told me he’d go out with a bang

Like a wheel
On a little red wagon spinning out on the corner
Johnny lived his life without no law and order
Like a wheel
Just a dirty little bastard going out for a ride
I guess Johnny lived his life just like a wheel
On a twisted up Harley spinning out on the corner
When Johnny crashed head on into that 18 wheeler
On a black and white cop car taking him for a ride
Yeah Johnny lived for speed and then he died


19. THE SHIRT POLICE

So there I was...MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS, wandering around the mall on a Thursday
afternoon.  I visited the music store where I had purchased the White Zombie t-shirt I was wearing
no more than two weeks before.  I was looking for a Thin Lizzy CD, something I didn't already have.  I realize
most of their catalogue is not widely available, but you never know when a tasty morsel of obscure rock history
previously unknown to you might appear out of no where.

So there I was, minding my own business, when I was approached by an officer of the law
An officer of the law

I was approached by an officer of the law.  The golden reflection of his badge seared my attention from the
abysmally empty Thin Lizzy section, and towards the majestic blue uniform of the public servant.  “To protect
and serve is your mission sir!  How may I be of assistance?"  There was a twinkle in his eye as he pointed at the
large breasted blue woman on my shirt and said:
"HEY!  YOU CAN'T WEAR THAT SHIRT IN HERE!"
And I said "What?"
And he said: You can’t wear that shirt in here
So I said "What?"
And he said: “A;ASLIGHA;ODUHAS;DGLJASHDG;ASLJGHALGDKAJS;DLGASD;GLAKSDGA;”
...and I said: "You IDIOT...I bought this shirt from this very store no more than two weeks ago!  Don't you realize
there are serious crimes being committed all over this city?  So what do you make of that?  
“AS;DLGKASDG;LAKSDGA;SLDKJGA;SLDGKAJS;DGLKASDGA;LSDKGAJSD;G”

THE SHIRT POLICE, THE SHIRT POLICE, GOODBYE GOVERNMENT, HELLO MOM
THE SHIRT POLICE, THE SHIRT POLICE, GOODBYE GOVERNMENT, HELLO GOD
THE SHIRT POLICE

So me being the type of guy that I am, I said: “Fine, I’ll leave, big fuckin’ deal”
But he says: "NOOOOOOooooo, I'm going to have to write you a ticket!"
And I said: "...WHAT?"
And he said: "I'M GOING TO HAVE TO WRITE YOU A TICKETWTIAWHGT;ALSIDHGA'SDG"
And I said: "OH YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO WRITE ME A TICKETW;LASDG;ALSDGHAS;DLG ARE YOU?"
...and that's exactly what he did.  $200 and 80 hours of community service!  For a shirt!  God…

THE SHIRT POLICE, THE SHIRT POLICE, GOODBYE GOVERNMENT, HELLO MOM
THE SHIRT POLICE, THE SHIRT POLICE, GOODBYE GOVERNMENT, HELLO GOD
THE SHIRT POLICE

...two hundred god damn dollars.


20. WALLS OF GOLD

Sign away your grief
From now on there's a fee
Bought your golden cage
I won't set you free

They come from miles around
Another callous crowd
They smile and take their seats
And wait to hear the screams

The world around you shines
You'll keep fading anyway
Bleeding at the seams
Self inflicted shades of grey
You don't remember
What got you to the stage

You've done this to yourself
You blame everyone else
You long to run away
The whole world is your hell

The walls of gold you've made
A prison for your brain
The money and the fame
Your instincts bought astray


21. ONE MORE FOR LUCK
(instrumental)
LEGALIZE CANNIBALISM
All lyrics by Graham Ferguson

1. SCREAM DREAMS

(Instrumental)


2. REBORN

Tear me away from the nightmare, slicing the clouds of lost dreams
Falling to Earth's blue reality
Fell through the noose of insanity, I'll hang myself in what's real
Spiraling fall through the black hole, twisting my body and soul
When I arrive I will be reborn
Reborn


3. ELECTRIC LIFE

You'll keep my streetlights burning, all night
You'll keep my city glowing, all night
Oh yeah

Give me a reason and I'll pull the plug on you for sure, oh yeah
Take what I don't need, leave what I don't want for you and yours

We made the game, you're born to play, so study up and obey our rules
My money doesn't make itself, appears you have some work to do

You'll wear the uniform or watch your children starve and die
You're all working late tonight, feed my electric life

The world is my apartment and I decorate it the way I like
2000 story furniture pollutes the air from gray tonight

It all belongs to me by now, I paid for it with all your souls
I just drop by from time to time to remind you of the life I stole


4. WHERE I AM

I can't control this anymore, I couldn't shove it through an open door
I know the cause is worth the fight, but I'm the only one who sees the light
What was the question?  I don't understand, still haven't got it but I know I can
Got all the answers in the palm of my hand, but I don't know where I am

I beat my brains out with the score, the more I work the smaller my reward
I've done my part now I want yours, won't wait forever, can't get off the floor
What was the question?  I don't understand, still haven't found it but I know I can
Got all the answers in the palm of my hand but I don't know where I am

I can't control this anymore, I beat my brains out with the score
I can't control this anymore, think I've explained this all before

Think I've explained this all before, same old mistakes just different morons, OR...
Just one who never gets it right, some asshole scratched up the CD of life
What was the question?  I don't understand, still haven't found it but I know I can
Got all the answers in the palm of my hand but I don't know where I am
I don't know where I am


5. ADAPT O RAT

If I spent all day complaining about my God damn job maybe I'd have more cash
If I cut off all my hair and wore Adidas maybe I'd get more ass, who knows
But I'm not doing that, least not for today
It's never quite enough, someone will complain, yeah
Why don't you tell me what you want?  I can be anything I'm not
Caught in a world of charging rats, I will adapt

If I cut in on the dope I'm supposed to sell to you, maybe I'd get some sleep
If I killed my wife and daughter on a slow news day, I'd be on TV Oh no...
But I'm not doing that, least not for today
It's never quite enough, someone will complain, yeah
Why don't you tell me what you want?  I could be anything I'm not
Caught in a world of charging rats, I will adapt

Why don't you give me your best shot?  I can take anything you've got
Caught in a world of charging rats I can adapt


6. THE NEW ME

Hey hey hey hey, I'll never be the same, hey hey hey hey I'll never say your name
I'm tired of the same old story, tired of the course of everyday
I'm tired of the same excuses, find the truth is so elusive
Shame on everyone, I'm taking down the names I'll never use again

One more appointment I can't keep, more disappointment I can reap
One more time I'll hold it all within, yeah, one more time just spin me 'round again
I'm not your problem can't you feel?  You made your problems now they're real
Don't mean to look so insecure, I can't touch the bottom anymore
One more time I clench my fists and sink them so far into it
One more time I face the world, one more time I say...

This is me, and I'm staring myself in the eyes, you know me, I am killing myself inside
Inside of me, I am ripping myself open wide, and I'm throwing away the things I used to be

One more commitment I can't make, more promises begin to break,
Stability begins to shake, yeah, I've done it all again for heaven's sake

And you don't know the things I know because you can't see the things I see
And you can't diagnose my life and so you can't wear me on your sleeve
You don't know the things I know so keep your thoughts away from me
I don't want to hear what makes you think I don't want to know what you believe

Sometimes I'd carry your mind beyond the walls around your selfish world
And I could show you some places that you just couldn't find
Within the self-indulgent spaces that you construct in your mind
I do believe you'd lose your mind

I'm tired of the same old faces, tired of the same old places, tired of the way you talk to me
When you're the only one to blame
I've wasted so much time just fighting off your childish disease
You couldn't satisfy yourself if you were all you had to please

This is me


7. I GOT MY WAY

If I told you that I had a really bad day would you care?
If I stayed up too late and I did something great would you notice?
If I told you that I had a mind for your heart would you laugh?
If I pulled out my gun and I aimed for your face would you be scared?

You hurt me, you hate me, you don't own my happiness
But I've got control now, and you've just got your prejudice

If I reached out my hand to be part of the plan would you laugh?
If I told you I wanted to be left alone would you stop?
If I screamed inside out at the top of my lungs could you hear me?
If I whipped out my gun and I wasted your friends, could anyone hear me?

You hurt me, you hate me, you couldn't just ignore me too?
'Cause I've been ignored before, by smarter jerks than you

Can you believe they say I'm sick?  Oh I'm so maladjusted
Like I'm the one who made the guns, and sold the drugs, yeah I'm busted
I'm not sick, I feel just fine, though you forget, I will remind you

You hurt me, you hate me, I guess it's just my lucky day
It all falls in place now, and I got my way


8. KILL THE MACHINE

(Instrumental)


9. ONE DOES NOT AGREE

One does not agree, one is not happy, one will not come clean,
One tends to complain, one does not obey, one won't go away
Did you hear what he said to me just now?  Oh what a relief
"Take good care of me, give me what I need, drugs and doodle therapy"

Paid some people to take his shoes away, he's got time to waste
Lock him in a room with some drug addicts, and some ex-convicts
Ask him questions that don't make any sense, one more urine test
Patronize him until his face is green, then we'll kick him in the teeth

One takes all his pills like a good machine, chemical cuisine
One more mannequin with a stupid grin, we are proud of him
All we had to do was destroy his brain, that fixed everything
One has really changed, one is not insane, back where he belongs, far away from me

"One no longer disagrees" says the fat guy with the sandals and the Ph.D.
"He sits in his chair and he stairs off into space, but there's a smile on his face ha ha"
yeah
"I get the big chair, and I do my fucking stupid job:
Telling people what they ought to do and who they are
And I get paid, and it's always gonna be this way
God it's good to be sane."


10. NO MORE NO MORE

I don't care no more
Crime pollution and chaos, breakfast, dinner and lunch
Catches up with you somehow, somewhere, I'm not scared
I don't care no more

Might not be very pretty, but people say that you're bright
Asking for my opinion are you?  Well I'd say you're half right
Things like that wouldn't matter in a perfect world
Well I like this one, so go live elsewhere, I don't care
I don't care no more


11. OR NOTHING

I'd do anything to be an anyone, anytime but now
I'd give it all away if it would leave me something new to talk about
I want to kill gods, I want to free slaves
I want to bust heads, I want to cure everyone in pain
Moderation is the key to endless mediocrity
The world seems so much larger when you don't drive quite so fast, but sadly
Then it only seems like that much more a fucked up old pile of trash

You can't, you can't have it all or nothing

If I found a home to rest my weary bones, I could never stay
If my reputation has preceded me, send it up in flames
A little bit here, a little bit there, they bury the truth, but I can't bury this nightmare
Suffocating under sheets of someone else's apathy
Just because you failed in life don't mean it's all you'll ever be
But everyone gives up before they even try and it's killing me

You can't, you can't have it all or nothing


12. COMPLAINT DEPARTMENT CLOSED

Complaint department closed
There was a reason I joined the legions of miserable jerks with guitars
Betrayed my feelings, entrust the weaklings who cover their sleeves with their hearts
I got my own shit, I'll bounce you off it, all you can do is complain
So you get your stupid, childish and putrid attitude out of my face

Complaint department closed

Telling the stories of love and glory but I'll walk alone 'til the end
Not apathetic but just pathetic, getting too fake to pretend
Dead and unblinking, the corpse was stinking, somehow the show still went on
I wasn't thinking, the ship was sinking, carve me that notch and I'm gone

Complaint department closed

Because there ain't no love I can't fake, no heart left to break
You know there ain't no life I ain't gonna die
Complaint department closed


13. ORIGINAL, LIKE ME

I'm a walking pile of unoriginality
Picking up the scraps of your familiarity
Cut and paste religion, don't believe in anything
Cutting up my records, pasting them upon my sleeve
Be original like me

I'm a walking pile of stinking greed and apathy
Echoing my generation's insincerity
Rip imagination from the latest magazines
Personal expression through the things I copy
Be original like me

Well I'm not a rock star but I play one on TV
My crib is full of useless crap my label loaned to me
But it isn't cheap to snort up coke most every night for supper
Support your local shit parade and buy my album SUCKER

I'm a walking pile of someone's advertising space
Occupying someone more important's time and place
My thought process is a corporate sponsored gang rape
Only know what can be smacked across my ugly face
Be original like me


14. WAITING ON MY LAST LEG

Hear them calling me from the black dots on the map
I've got both hands on the wheel but my foot won't hit the gas
Road sign up ahead says I'm beating the right path
But I'm never gonna get there if I don't start hauling ass

Waiting on my last leg, haven't done a thing since last October
Standing on the first step, get me to the show before it's over

Truckload of ideas, plus a few boxed up in tow
And I want the world to hear 'em but there's nowhere to unload
Running out of time to be stranded by the road
If I'm not buried alive then I might just get too old

Scared to death, bored to tears, one more record 2 more years
Proud as hell, no one cares, must be more to this out there

Waiting on my last leg, haven't done a thing since last October
Standing on the first step, get me to the show before it's over
Before it's over


15. THE FIELD WHERE THE GIANT MUSHROOMS GREW

There was a warning on the morning news, millions ignored it and ran off to school
Could it be different even if they knew?

In the field where the giant mushrooms grew to the sky
Shading the end of all things civilized

Assured destruction came from either side, there was no wreckage only dust for miles
One page in history for the millions who died
The millions who died...

In the field where the giant mushrooms grew to the sky
Shading the end of all things civilized
Civilized?


16. NEVER GONNA EVER BE ENOUGH

Been a long time in the making, giving up more than I'm taking
I was burning just to feel alive, now I'm burning and I'm just on fire
Life will always kick you in the guts
Never gonna ever be enough, oh no

Suicidal in my better moods, back and forth it makes for decent tunes
I'm still here 'cause no one's stopped me yet, if they tried I'd just throw back my head
Life will always...

One more lesson thrown onto the pile, down the road will take us one more mile
Buckle up now, keep your hands inside, gonna take you monkeys for a ride
Life will always kick you in the guts
Never gonna ever be enough
Enough
THIS WORLD INSANE
All lyrics by Graham Ferguson

1. THIS WORLD INSANE

Welcome to this world insane, there are no rules, there is no shame,
And no restraints to keep you in your place
Only patterns to be retraced, for centuries we chase this race,
Around the sun and only in third place
Praising all the same mistakes oh how they’ve lead the human race

Don’t pray to God the father, my father left me here alone
To him I am no daughter, to me he’s just another ghost

Here we see a woman child, beaten, weak, and driven wild
Alone against a world of untrained minds
But those who fail to chase their tails are cast aside to rot in jail
Or left behind to find a brand new trail
Someone’s tired of being raped, a broken home she must escape

Don’t pray to Mother Mary, my mother left when I was young
To her I am no daughter, to me she’s just another drunk

2. DIRT AND DIGNITY

I am the most pathetic piece of shit in the world
Send me back through the black hole from which I was hurled
I have been living a lie pretending to belong
I never say anything because I’m always wrong
I lie awake every night thinking of what they see
Hoping I die in my sleep so no one has to look at me

Nobody believes in anything
Bury me with dirt and dignity

I see their lips they are moving but I don’t care to hear
Because I know deep inside that they just wish that I’d disappear
Sometimes I wonder if I deserve the air that I breath
Sometimes I lie to myself ‘cause I don’t always believe
And if I like it or not that’s how I get through each day
Don’t want to lie anymore but I’ve got nothing else to say

Nobody believes in anything
Bury me with dirt and dignity

All of these people are marching to invisible drums
I am trampled beneath for refusing to see and become
I have been keeping inside voices I hear in my mind
They turn the world upside down, and then I understand why
This place was made for the damned I can’t get sucked in too
I’ve got to keep my head down and smash my face right through

3. ORPHANS AND OTHER LOST DREAMS

Blinded by madness she ran, through the front window with blood on her hands
Tumbling across landscapes unknown, hopelessly lost on her own
How could the world so betray someone so young with so little to say?
Narrowly she had escaped, heading north to the city of orphans and lost dreams

Miles of black pavement had passed underfoot, the sky became clouded with nicotine soot
The city unfolded like a dirty old map and behind every crease was a hungry new trap
Dodging past strangers’ malevolent wrath, she mindless wandered a staggering path
Voices were calling her to God knows where and she hurriedly followed them in her
despair

Worn from her struggle she fell, storm clouds above her beginning to swell
Perverted strangers looked on, creeping and casting their shadows upon
Quickly the bastards closed in, raping the lost girl again and again
Savagely ripped an attack, left her for dead with a knife in her back

Dead in the city of orphans and lost dreams

4. STREET LIGHTS ON DEMON NIGHTS

Deep in the city where the girl found her demise
A strange face awaits the kill beneath the blue moonlight
Fixing his gaze upon the unsuspecting prey
Remorseless as a thief he steals the life away

Despite the blindness of the night a streetlight sees
Cutting the blackness with a beam of mystery
A circle of light reveals a victim of this world
A strange face observes the soiled corpse of one young girl

What twisted tale untangles here, lifeless but torn in phantom fear
Rejected by this world and left to feed the freaks
My eyes have seen a million crimes, somehow it’s different this time
She’s young, I must take her with me

Spreading great wings the creature clutched her at his side
Without a sound they disappeared into the sky

So we begin on another twisted journey
Pulled through the sky like an angel in noose
Over the heads of a million sleeping sinners
Under the veil of the shadow lands mystique

5. INSIDE THIS CARCASS

Spiraling visions roll my eyes, swirling the shadows in my mind
My spirit tumbles from salvation, inside this carcass I awake
I join the undead congregation, inside this paralyzed mutation
Tormented faces gaze upon me, I hear the voice of wisdom speak

They would not love you if you did learn of their ways
They expect you to suffer out all of your days
We were once of your kind, we know of your pain
You will find your new life within our crusade

I feel their fingers in my mind, changing my body and my sight
Destroy this being, this existence, make me a monster, make me vicious

In your life they torment you and strip you of worth
When you die they will harvest the good of your work
This we have seen before, it’s always the same
Swear yourself to the creed and you will live again

6. NEW WORLD

Still alive, watching the world marching to common time
Observe through christened eyes, this world of pain now brings delight
Reborn and re-baptized, vengeful emotions make their plight

Still alive, watching the world through her ravenous eyes
Keeping the creed alive, her new companions storm the night
Legions of hungry cenobites devour the children of the light

Slowly I come to realization, as I surrender to temptation
My life was wasted as a jester, playing the fool for all mankind

7. SHORES OF WAR

Stirring in the bowels in the dens beneath the surface
Spewing from the ground the mutants came in deadly swarms
Swooping from the sky to kill the human pestilence
Shrieking with the air raid siren song as it was torn
Crying to the heavens through the tangled web of leather
The mortals begged for mercy where no mercy had been given
Wings of devils carried them from worldly peace forever
Screaming for their lives as they were torn to bloody ribbons

Shaken from the raids the humans raced to find their ground
United in hostility like many days before
Alerting every soldier, every tank was ordered out
In waves the armored oceans crushed against the shores of war

Years of vengeance have begun, clouds of lead choke out the sun
Count the crimes against our kind, we will punish everyone
Vanquish reason from your mind, spoils of war will come in time
Grab a sinner and a vice, demand a sacrifice

The gods of war demand a sacrifice

The just and unjust were faceless as they burst upon death’s prongs
And the power mad flesh was warned against vengeance
But temptation was just too strong

So from bad to worse went the vengeful curse, as the beaches were laced with blood
And the world was drawn to the screaming song, of the battlefields they would flood

Churning in a rage the earth became a battlefield
The years of pent up anger were unleashed upon that day
Beneath the mighty armies was a world left to decay
Pretending not to notice when the daylight slipped away

8. A STRANGE LOVE LOST

Now several years had passed, the world was well at war
And scattered all around, remains of tired lives
And through a haze of shattered glass and bleeding eyes
Watch the dark ones come, invading from the north
A quiet town familiar, yet untouched by death
A quiet house, a broken window under boards
A weeping woman spills herself across the floor
Why have you been spared when nothing else is left?

All are gone, all is lost
All are gone, and still you stumble through your life just like a corpse
With nothing left inside, you are a corpse, with nothing left to hide
Your jaws hang open wide, screaming with pain we’ve always felt
As if you had something to say for yourself

Familiar voice ordered the taunting to a halt
And the girl looked on, her heart tied in a knot
The screaming memories of pain this woman brought
Deaf forever as her blood painted the wall

All are gone, all is lost
All are gone and still you stumble through your life just like a corpse
With nothing left inside you are a corpse, with nothing left to hide
Your mouth hangs open wide, I hope you choked on your last words
As if you had something to say to the world

(I am, I was, I am I)

I watched you stumble through your life just like a corpse
And in death you are no more a corpse, with nothing left inside
Your arms hang open wide, behold the nothing you unfold
As if you had something to give to the world

9. BLOOD RED SUNSET

Say farewell to the sun
To the love that held everyone
See the earth filled with fear
As the stars disappear
Tears of rage melt their eyes
And fiery hearts turn to ice
Now all the earth’s daughter, and all of its sons
Know that the end has just begun

Where were the innocent chasing shadows from the veil of light?
Why were their children being slaughtered in their elder’s fight?
Where are the angels?
The tolling of Hell’s bells?
For what we have done, no kingdom would come

Raise your hands to the sky
If you see God, ask him why
But the smoke blinds them all
And into darkness they fall
Clouds of ink blot the air
Blacking out all despair
And all of the creatures of the world understand
The darkness they conjured rules the land

We were all monsters ripping pages from the book of life
Leaving the phrases and quotations that made us alike
Killing the others, once we were brothers
For what we have done, no kingdom would come

Now the surface grows still
And the earth sheds a chill
And the oceans arise
Cleanse the world of this life
Oily blood fills the sea
From the lost world beneath
An icy red ocean will turn in its place
Silently rolling through space

You are all writers, scrawling chapters in the book of life
How many pages have you wasted feeling only spite?
Hating your neighbors, fighting with strangers
For all that you’ve done, your kingdom will come

10. MARCH OF ENSLAVED SOULS

(Instrumental)